I try not to use this blog to pull a "Woe is Me" moment, but I can't help it today.. Maybe it's the weather that is keeping me in a slump. My husband and I have decided to try and have more childern. These past couple of months I have had such a need to be a mother to more kids. I have always had a great love for children, but was not able to have more.. That's why Hannah is a very special little girl and I cherish her. We received the good news that we can try, but have been unsuccesful.. I know they say when you try it doesn't happen, but why me.. Did I do something wrong?? Am I being punished??
I had a conversation with a very smart and wise women that reminded me that God doesn't punish. He loves and will bless you with children on his own time. I need to put this all in the Lords hands. Honestly it's very hard. I have always figured ways to make things work. I need to trust in the Lord and know he is watching over me every moment and loves me for who I am and will continue to bless me whether it's with more children or not. I am extremly greatful for my life and my family. I would love to add more little ones and hope one day we can, but for now I am enjoying every moment that I have with Hannah and Jeff.
How it All Started
16 years ago